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What? Me Worry?

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Based upon the results of the poll, the winner is WORRY. Almost 50% of the people that participated, including myself say we worry too much. I see this is a burden for so many.

That gave me a great idea to post about all of us worrying too much. Maybe by me writing about worrying, it will help you and me from worrying so much.

According to the dictionary, worry means to:  torment oneself with or suffer from disturbing thoughts; fret. When I read this I literally said “WOW” out loud. We are torturing ourselves. I said to myself, “who, in their right mind would torture themselves, that’s just nuts. Then I answered, “oh yeah, I do almost every day.

Let me share a little bit. I may have mentioned this in a prior post or in my book “Making Decisions”, but I am a control freak. I like order, plans, lists and having a great idea of what is down the road.

I am not sharing, to make you feel sorry for me. I am letting you know that I am just your average girl that struggles like everyone else does and you are not alone. By sharing a little bit of my story, my hope is to help others and even myself become better people.

I may not have had the best adult life (yet) with an ex-husband that wasn’t the nicest man, going through a divorce, a custody battle, raising my son on my own, seeing so many of my aunts, uncles, cousins, friends, co-workers and grandparents pass away (about 40 deaths in 25 years), financial issues, losing a home and my job. GEEZ!!!! Just listing these things makes me see how I am prone to worrying.

When I lost my job about 8 months ago, that I had worked for almost 14 years, needless to say, I was freaked out and worried.

I am very fortunate that I am able to take some time to figure out what my next step is. Which is still a work in progress. I have been given the opportunity to reinvent myself. I am taking advantage by, taking my time, trying a few new things that I love, like writing and waiting to see where all of this leads me.

But I still worry about my future, what it holds, where my career will lead me or where this ‘time-off’ journey will take me. I worry about my son and his future, my parents that are sick and my cousins that are sick.

I just read the above paragraphs and thought…..Boy, I’m depressing. I would stop reading this. Hang in there with me, please. I’m getting to the more positive stuff.

Since I have lost my job things are very different. I didn’t realize that the job was toxic for me. I am more relaxed, less stressed and no longer have headaches. I am happier. That job caused me to have blinders on and I couldn’t see past that job or the next paycheck. That’s not a great way to live my friends.

In the past 8 months I have been able to relax more, sleep better and really go for something I have wanted, like write 2 short books, start a blog, get a little crafty, get myself organized, help others get organized, and be there for my family. Granted none of these things has brought any money in (for now), but I am happy (sane) again. No amount of money can buy your happiness.

With doing these things I have realized that being in control is out the window. To my surprise, I am ok with that. I still worry about my future, but I worry less about my folks, my kid and cousins. I see now that these are things that I really can’t control.

For me, having this time to really reflect has been therapeutic. I am a work in progress but it’s getting better. I have come to the conclusion that I will probably always worry about my own future, but to worry about others and their future is a waste of my energy. I need to put that energy into helping my family and do what I can to help others, by writing this blog and books.

I know it doesn’t seem like much but just like the other posts, we have to find our happy. Writing and helping others, makes me happy.

I guess what I am saying is, don’t waste your time with worry, Spend your time making yourself or others happy.

Please leave a comment, I would love to hear from my readers. I want to do right by all of you and your feedback would be great. Thanks

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2 thoughts on “What? Me Worry?

  1. i can relate to this and i am glad you are in your “happy” place. time will allow you to be lead to your next step of fulfillment. i love your blogs. you are a help to those of us who read it. blessings to you.

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